My mom found out about what I did, the groomers, the nudes that I sent. I got beat up. I’m not going to see the Internet anymore until I am 18.

Look, I know some of the things that I will say on this post about my mom might be rude and distasteful to some, but I need to get this off my chest. So, my mom is an ex-drug attic who used to do drugs (heroin and coke) and I (as a baby) was taken away from her by DIFAS, and that caused me bad trauma. After she went to drug court and got herself clean, my family hated her for what she had done, my grandma hated her the most. She would say so many things, like: “THAT’S WHY YOUR DAUGHTER HATES YOU!” And so much other stuff. After my mom did drugs, my grandma became such a hateful person towards my mom, and me. She was nasty to me a lot, but I still had pity for her. Even when she forced me and my mom to leave. My mom is also a cheater. She had cheated on her late husband with my soon-to be deadbeat dad. She also cheated on my stepdad when he was away because he caused too many issues. She cheated and had sex with a guy called Dante that she called “her friend” She even told me that “the sex was good, but you don’t understand that yet” I just pretended to not understand, even know I knew damn fucking well I understood what she meant, because I heard her moaning in the bathroom and bedroom when she had sex with him. Forgot to mention she kissed other guys when my stepdad was away. I love my mom to death, but the shit she had done is not ok. I’m only 13 and I even know. What the fuck is wrong with my parents and society. My mom is a cheater and ex-drug user (she smokes weed kinda, but that’s none of my business) and my actual dad is nothing better than her, used every drug, did every worst crime, and is a broke dumbass who whipped me constantly as a young kid which would probably be considered abuse. My stepdad is selfish and drives people to being committed. His mom and his friend are both victims of his insanity, and I almost was too (I almost got committed to a mental hospital, but I think you’ve already seen that post) But I know he means good, but he can be excessive, and on top of all of that they have to deal with me. A 13 year old girl who is mentally unstable and draws disturbing shit and is obsessed with other disturbing things, like blood, gore, nazis and other stuff, what makes it worse is that I am black. Kids at my school fucking hate me and want to beat me up, possibly kill me even, and so much traumatic shit that I’ve been through when I was 5-10 to now. The Internet also played a part in my trauma due to the things I saw and got desensitized to. I’ve seen a lot of things that I was to young to see. All the trauma I’ve been through as a young child is what made me to become who I am today. To summarize this in the simplest way possible. I had a rough childhood and my parents and my family and the Internet didn’t make it better.

It is always going to just be him,nothing else.

I’ve been groomed thrice. Got groomed by MX, then got groomed by a guy named Rusty (who sent nudes and forced me to send nudes back and was super creepy) And a guy named Jecht who I’m still with

This will never end

2024 is starting like shit for me, my parents cannot be mentally stable for 1 second.

And one of my friends is in denial about MX, and I really hate it tbh

“Stalin is my true dad who loves me, Hitler is my absuive stepdad”

“USSR is my mom”

This is the shit I said during my mental breakdown I had (censored friends name for privacy reasons)

I told my psychologist about this and other things that I did, she suggested me to go to a mental hospital for a week to help me. I really want to tell my psychiatrist and therapist about what MX did, but if my parents find out my internet access will be taken away until I am 18, so I’ll try to keep this a secret. Or maybe tell but she to keep it in secrecy. Idk, anything from loosing you all. (Credit to Ech0Chamber for the USSR art)

I always saw Joseph Stalin as a father figure to me because my actual dad couldn’t even give two shits about me. I really hate it that my dad doesn’t care about me and is a bum with no education, so I use Stalin as my father figure as a way to cope. I said that when I was having a mental breakdown aswell. Me also saying that the USSR is my mom is just something I said during a mental breakdown, nothing against my actual mom because I love her.

I will now be on an indefinite hiatus, probably until the summer or until I get my IPad back.

So long, hope to see the fanart or fan animations of the Towers that you all made

just @ me if you made one

4 days..

HORRAY 4 DAYS LEFT UNTIL WINTER BREAKKK!!

5 more days until winter break, aka escaping from hell